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[07 Nov 2007|11:44pm] idk why i'm so angry right now. I just want everything to fucking vanish. I'm single, lonely. i've always got to put a fucking happy face on for friends, customers, peers. I've turned into the very thing i used to despise. Things were less complicated when i was younger. When i was less exposed, when i was ignorant to the world. *** Now that i know how life is i want to kick the bucket and lose it chase me away bc i wont be back fuck this shell life has turned to hell the information highway has left me dry and all this attention has left a tear in my eye i've mad mistakes i've done things wrong i've taken hits but i wont fall. Now that i know how life is i want to kick the bucket and lose it chase me away bc i wont be back fuck this shell life has turned to hell Verse after verse apparate in my head magical feelings my heart is fed tired of this beating noise in my mind fuck this shit i'll die with my kind. backwashed words are said and passed wish away this life and end its craft making people losing people faking people wasting people internet hope and glamour are lost friends on the other side have begin to fall losing touch with who i used to be losing touch with me soul eating beast leap from the closet molesting my inner child fucking my innocence and leaving me mild. fucktheseliesandthepeopleidispise. ~BEn Want to talk?

Let it Flow!!! [30 Sep 2007|06:24am] [ mood | artistic ] [ music | Paramore- Crush Crush Crush ] I've been writing fucking awesome guitar parts lately. I can feel the muse. All you guys are my inspiration. Music is the artist's interpretation of his/her life. And lately, i've had tons of material. You guys are my life. ~BEn Want to talk?

[22 Jun 2007|01:38am] SO hows it going guys? Me? Its going ok. Thanks for asking tho. So there is a girl that just started working at Outback. And... i kinda sorta like her. But she has a boyfriend... should that stop me? haha. ~BEn Want to talk?

Stuff [12 Apr 2007|02:02am] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | Stephen Lynch ] I'm tired of being single. DAMN!!! Its been 6 months since my last fling into the foray of relationships. I finally want someone that i can love again. So... Ladies... Start flinging your numbers on stage. ~BEn 2 Conversations|Want to talk?

Let me be emo for a second [11 Jan 2007|11:52pm] just as the world has a light side and a dark, people have a duality of nature as well. They revolve and pivot occasionally showing the shadow of their minds. This is my shadow. I wish i could head back into the light. I feel like shit these days. I'm always depressed. I've even taken up smoking again. I'm just really tired of being conscious. ~BEn Want to talk?

WOOT!!!- [03 Jan 2007|02:38pm] SCHOOL IS STARTING BACK!!! I'm actually happy about it. Getting all excited about learning C++. Can i hear an amen? ~BEn 3 Conversations|Want to talk?

Hosbibal [16 Nov 2006|12:11am] [ mood | sick ] I'm in the hospital, I'm really sick with good ol'pneumonia... But i'm getting better. I'm off the oxygen now, so just keep me in youre thoughts. ~BEn 1 Conversation|Want to talk?

IS ANYONE OUT THERE!!!??? [29 Aug 2006|10:08pm] I'm wondering who still uses their livejournal. I'm re-instating this account bc i am making a community based on hacking/computer language assistance. Just send me a comment or something. ~BEan 6 Conversations|Want to talk?

[29 Aug 2006|10:25am] I'm back bitches... Just thought i'd let you know... who still uses this old thing??? ~BEn 1 Conversation|Want to talk?

[04 Feb 2006|02:52am] THis is my last post its nearly 3 in the morning and im ready to get this thing over with. im going to change my password into a random string of letter's / numbers. so i hope all of my Lj friends have a nice life... Thanks for all the comments. ~BEn 2 Conversations|Want to talk?

[03 Feb 2006|11:59pm] 3 days till absolution. ~BEn Want to talk?

[02 Feb 2006|08:03am] 4 days till death ~BEn 2 Conversations|Want to talk?

[31 Jan 2006|04:29pm] Count till death: 6 days 2 Conversations|Want to talk?

[30 Jan 2006|09:54pm] This thing sucks... if you hate someone... do it. if you love someone do it if you want to love someone then the next moment hate them... do it... but your weird and hypocritical. But for God's sake... if you want them to know TELL THEM TO THERE FACE!!! Dont make rumors thats not human And if its true... keep there secrets out of respect for a time when you were friends... Im just tired of this lj thing... so in a week, its gone. Keep your sexual prefrence to yourself... unless you like them ~BEn 3 Conversations|Want to talk?

[30 Jan 2006|08:27pm] Ok... lj sucks... People that spread stuff on here suck... and i use it as a medium... usually but i think ill post less frequently im moving to www.deviantart.com for good... ~BEn Want to talk?

[29 Jan 2006|10:24pm] Thank you for making me see that your not there and never could be bc you have other things on your mind, more important than excess bagagge, or even this copper taste bc you've bitten your tongue again and not done what you've said and let the battle begin bc you've taken all i had. ~BEn Im writing again too... but is that good. 6 Conversations|Want to talk?

[28 Jan 2006|01:25am] [ mood | accomplished ] http://www.purevolume.com/sims ok this isnt much... but this is what we have so far... guitar only... but i think its ok for a shitty recording i found on comp. recently. I promise you... better things in the future. ~BEn Want to talk?

[26 Jan 2006|06:23pm] 2 knifes slit this paper like a scissor device... of the devistating ingenious of man killing his creations just so he can improve himself in the blood of his faliure but doesnt have the balls even to tell her... All of the things he doeesnt want to say and he prbly coudnt anyway bc he regrets letting her know that he isnt always strong and that does have a soul One that's breaking and shattering away ~BEn 1 Conversation|Want to talk?

[26 Jan 2006|04:13pm] Not depressed so far... yay. ~BEn 1 Conversation|Want to talk?

[24 Jan 2006|08:37pm] Life is good... could be better but sometimes better isnt neccisarilly better if you now what im saying and im sure none of you do... 3 PARTS THIS SEMESTER!!!! THATS LIKE A FREAKING RECORD!!!! ~BEn 1 Conversation|Want to talk?

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